Mary Annuciation

The Annunciation

I would like to start my sharing of experience about Mary with the greeting of angel Gabriel in the gospel of Luke 1:28; “Hail, full of grace, the Lord is with you”.  Notice that the angel didn’t mention the name of our lady?  Instead, the angel emphasized the salutation as “Hail, full of grace” or in Greek word “kecharitomene”; and not Mary, you are full of grace.  This is a clear evidence in sacred scripture, that Mary was indeed privilege and preserve by God with an absolute grace free from original sin.

As a Catholic Christian during the early 90’s, me and my entire family don’t have a deeper relationship with Mary.  We just know her as a typical human being that played a big part in salvation history.  Until a “great storm” came to my family.

It was August of 1996 when my younger sister May who was 18 years of age have had a seizure around 1:00 o’clock in the morning.  I vividly remember that her entire body is uncontrollably shaking and stiff.  Her eyes are apart and her saliva was bubbling.  It’s like witnessing a person with an epileptic condition.

The entire family were shaken and we don’t know what to do.  My mother is crying while she is embracing her daughter and shouting her name over and over.  I myself was shock and I felt my entire body was frozen.  I cannot move because it is my first time to witness such occurrence involving a loved one.

My dad came and carried my sister and we all run in the nearest clinic as we shout for help.  But it is an ungodly hour and everyone in the neighborhood is in a deep slumber.

My sister was given a first aid so that the seizure might subside.  Afterward, the driver came and drove the car and finally we arrived at the hospital.  The seizure continues and May is in a state of unconsciousness.

We stayed at the hospital’s intensive care unit for more than two months.  May remained in a comatose state and the only thing that kept her breathing is the respirator machine and continuous medicine given to her.   She was suffering from brain abscess meningitis, lung infection, her heartbeat and blood pressure are unstable because she was diagnosed with a Guillain-Barré syndrome (GBS), a disorder in which the body’s immune system attacks part of the peripheral nervous system. The first symptoms of this disorder include varying degrees of weakness or tingling sensations in the legs. In many instances the symmetrical weakness and abnormal sensations spread to the arms and upper body. These symptoms can increase in intensity until certain muscles cannot be used at all and, when severe, the person is almost totally paralyzed. In these cases, the disorder is life threatening – potentially interfering with breathing and, at times, with blood pressure or heart rate – and is considered a medical emergency. Such an individual is often put on a ventilator to assist with breathing and is watched closely for problems such as an abnormal heart beat, infections, blood clots, and high or low blood pressure. (National Institute of Neurological Disorders and Stroke).

We all have a drooping spirit but I remain calm and kept my faith and trust in the Lord.  It was only I who is involved in a Catholic Charismatic Movement during those time and I am just starting to discover the richness of my Catholic faith.

Prayers and moral support from friends and relatives are outpouring and that situation made my family relationship close to one another.  For we cannot afford to lose another family member.

When a loved one is struggling for her life and you are witnessing that life and death situation face to face, which is a hairline; you can say all the good things and last minute goodbye straight from the heart.

Our heart is in total grief as we continue to see our sister May suffering from all the needles (intravenous) inserted in her vein.  The hospital already made us signed a waiver because my sister’s body is in need of the medicine for her to continue living.

We already accepted the fate of my sister’s condition as we prepare ourselves to let go of her.  We call a priest to give her the sacrament of the anointing of the sick to prepare her spiritually in case death will visit my beloved sister anytime soon.

September 11, 1996 when May became conscious.  She was so thin and suffering from bed sore.  The following day, the respirator was taken away from her mouth.  Usually, a patient who had a respirator machine for so long a time cannot manage to speak as the lung still recuperate.

Around 6:00 o’clock the next morning the family went to visit my sister at the ICU.  Everyone was so happy as we witness May alive and conscious as she continue to struggle to breathe without the aid of the respirator machine; at the same time we are sad because we still don’t know how long she will stay with us.

Mary Twin HeartsMay was looking to each and every one, looking at us like a 5 year old child.  As she opened her mouth and spoke in a very soft voice telling us all… “Someone visited me” … We all cannot hear her because her voice was so soft, so we asked her again… What did you say again sister?  She replied again with a very slow and soft voice… “Someone visited me today”.  With curiosity in everyone’s face, we asked her… Who visited you?  It is 6 o’clock in the morning and the visiting time in this ICU hospital is 9am.  May continued to speak animatedly as she disclosed to us in detail with a coarse and soft voice… like a child, she spiritedly shared with us…  “Jesus and Mary visited me today… Mary is so beautiful!  She is wearing a blue dress and a veil.  She is holding a white cloth like a handkerchief.  She walked close to me and she wipe my head, chest and entire leg and feet with the white handkerchief”.  We asked her again… How about Jesus?  Is he doing something?  May replied, none! “He is just standing at my feet, looking at me.  He didn’t utter a word but just looking at me.  He is wearing a red robe”.  We asked her again… How come they managed to get out in the ICU?  May replied, “I don’t know… Mary told me to sleep and I slept immediately.  When I opened my eyes, they are gone”.

We all laugh out loud as we don’t know what and how to react; if we will believe her or not.  Maybe she just had a dream or whatever.  Their are butterflies in our stomach because her story is a supernatural phenomenon. We are skeptic and at the same time, like Thomas the apostle, a man of little faith.  Nevertheless, we are thankful for that sharing and experienced of May at her death bed in her second day being conscious.

All the laboratory and other test was again repeated and monitored the same day that Mary and Jesus allegedly appeared to her.  The following day, mid-day, the doctors came and updated us with the result.  We are so astounded as the doctors declared that all the test are negative especially the Guillain-Barré.  One of the doctor is a Buddhist and he told us that what happened to my sister is indeed a miracle.

We never disclosed this to anyone else because this is a very sensitive issue.  Nonetheless, why keep this in secret since it made my entire family relationship better, close to one another and renewed.  Isn’t it a miracle of faith, hope and love?  We can now express the love and care in words and action that we never did before.  That situation created a great change with my family relationship; and we become to know Mary deeply as our mother and intercessor.  Moreover, our relationship with God through Mary became more profound as we all witness His merciful love and saving grace that heals.  Like in the ancient days, Jesus not only heals the physical deformities of the lepers and the blind but He heals the distortion and deformities of our soul.

Mary and Infant JesusWe started as a family to have a deep devotion to Mary, as we honor her as the mother of God.  Of course all the praises and worship belong to our Triune God.  But Mary, the mediatrix of all graces is truly a powerful channel to convince her son Jesus with our prayer petition.  It reminded me with her intercession in the wedding at Cana, as Jesus turned the water into wine.  That time, Jesus is not yet to perform his miracle but how can a loving son like Jesus decline the request of a loving mother?

Now, I am in the process to know more and more about her, that I may able to proclaim the profound beauty of our mother Mary. Since I am a child of God, therefore, she is my mother too!  She remained and witness all the joyful, sorrowful and glorious moment of her son Jesus.  As she continue to intercede for each of us who plead to her maternal protection, always leading us to her son.  Mary who carried the son of God in her womb for nine months.  She who nurse and taught our Lord Jesus Christ the incarnate word, the bread of life, who is the royal priesthood, all the unconditional love a mother can give to her child.  Truly, Jesus give life and walk the commandment given to Moses at Mount Sinai, that is to honor your father and mother.  So we Christians must honor the mother of God.  For Jesus himself give the highest honor to her Queen Mother.

In one of an autobiography book that I read about Martin Luther, the founder of protestant reformation was once a Catholic Agustinian monk, started the Lutheran church in 1517 A.D.  Luther once gave a homily 10 years after leaving the Catholic Church… as I quote his words… “We are the children of Mary.  Mary is the mother of Jesus and the mother of us all.  If Christ is ours, his mother therefore is also ours.  She, the lady above heaven and earth, here passes the woman who is raised far above all woman; indeed above all human race.  No woman is like unto thee.  Thou art more than an empress or a queen blessed above all nobility, wisdom or saintliness”.  Isn’t it ironic that today, most christian denomination degrade and ignore the mother of God?  Maybe they should be reminded with the words of their founder about Mary.

Moreover, the action tell again about Lucifer who was cast down from the ranks of heavenly being because Lucifer was full of pride.  Father Jose’ Fortea, in his work, Interview With An Exorcist, points out why Catholics look to Mary as an important ally in the struggle against demonic forces… Lucifer is the most perfect creature by nature; Mary is the most perfect creature by grace. Lucifer corrupted himself by disobedience; Mary sanctified herself by obedience.  Lucifer wanted to be king, refusing to served, and in the end became nothing; Mary wanted to be nothing, desiring to serve, and in the end was crowned Queen of Heaven.

Truly it is heaven to know that I am her son and she is my mother!  And my mother is a Queen!

Today, my sister May will celebrate her 40th birthday on November 2016.  A two decade of witnessing the powerful love of God through Mary.  She is now actively and effectively managing the financial affair of our family enterprise, a livestock agri-business.


May’s recent picture (2016)

As I unwind, let me share with you the classic Memorare prayer that I usually recite from the heart especially in time of need and doubt…

“Remember, O most gracious Virgin Mary, that never was it known that anyone who fled to your protection, implored your help, or sought your intercession was left unaided.

Inspired by this confidence, I fly unto you, O Virgin of virgins, my mother; to you do I come, before you I stand, sinful and sorrowful. O Mother of the Word Incarnate, despise not my petitions, but in your mercy hear and answer me.

Amen”…. Mary, mother of all Christians… Pray for us.


Let me start my reflection on the eucharist by sharing a quote from the words by St. Augustine of Hippo… “ We have dark times ahead of us.  But you will be a light in the darkness, a light of love.  If you keep silent, keep silent with love.  If you speak out, speak out with love.  If you discipline, discipline with love.  If you forgive, forgive with love.  Let love take root within you.  For only goodness can arise from this origin”… Love.

In our modern world today, people are too busy with many things that we only have a very limited time to spend with family, friends and make a personal reflection of where we are heading in our life journey.

With our very busy lifestyle, most of the food we eat are instant.  To conform to one’s idea and be connected to a person is only a matter of clicking the “Like” button.  We get connected to people in an instant in a very shallow and virtual manner, their is no sense of a deep connection.

BouveretLastSupperSame thing that is happening when we go to mass every Sunday, we no longer know the essence and true meaning of the holy sacrifice whenever we commemorate the breaking of the bread that was instituted by Jesus Christ 2,000 years ago.


Because we are not aware of the immense power of the word we utter as we recite the vocal rituals and the exchange of sacred words between the priest and the faithful; that was pass on every generation through sacred tradition, their is no longer a deep connection to the one who loved us first whenever we attend the holy mass.

To some it is a Sunday obligation, to others a routine to perform.  To the fundamentalist, the eucharist is a symbolic sacrament to remember.  We forgot that we come and partake in the holy sacrifice because we deeply love and commit ourselves to our True Lover.  A commitment to love! To be one with God IN love … Love, who is God…

Most of us are not aware of what’s happening when a simple bread and wine transubstantiate into the true and real body and blood of our Lord Jesus Christ by the power of the Holy Spirit given to his anointed priest in the sacrament of holy orders.

How I envy the participants of the 51st Eucharistic Congress held in Cebu City, Philippines with the theme Christ in us, our hope of glory.

I hunger to know deeply in the ordinary things that are hidden in the mystery of the Eucharist.  I want to understand and to experience the overwhelming and profound richness and meaning of the broken body of Christ, through listening and spiritual formation.

I intensely desire to listen to the talked given by Papal legate Charles Maung Cardinal Bo; Fr. Timothy Radcliffe; Rev. Robert Barron; Fr. Luciano Ariel Felloni and other speakers as they share their own personal experiences on the Eucharist and how it transformed their life to holiness and wholeness.

I see these holy people as living martyrs for Jesus because they witness and stand for the truth.  They speak and evangelize the truth. They live what is expected of them as disciples of the ancient Catholic Church.

As a lay person, I can only share my humble understanding on how I experience the unfathomable beauty of Jesus Christ hidden in the broken bread.

I confess that I am a sinner hiding in an angelic naive look, a modern hypocrite and a charming liar.  I own up being deceitful, manipulative and proud… a sinner, filthy and devastated.  And that is my own miserable truth.


Just like the parable of the prodigal son, I rather go back to the house of my father, as I swallow my pride and serve him as one of his servant. However, in spite of my shortcoming, my father prepared a feast for me, embraced me and dress me with the finest robe. Making me realize how I am deeply loved.

It is a good thing to know that through Christ Jesus we can find hope and eternal salvation. His mercy is overflowing! He allowed my brokenness to surface for others to see His healing grace, mercy and love.  How amazing!  Again, quoting the words of St. Augustine, “God allow us to be lost in able to be found.”

Experiencing the merciful love of God in my filthiness and brokenness is truly redeeming!  It made me keep in touch with myself, my feet on the ground, slow to judgement and to realised that I have nothing to boast but only my nothingness in the presence of the Lord.

The desire to be holy is a lifetime struggle.  To be worthy to partake and be one with the true body of Christ in the most holy Eucharist is to recommit our baptism vow by denouncing sin and Satan with conviction.

As human as we are, we are inclined to concupiscence because of the original sin that we inherited from our first parent. We are weak whenever temptation knock in our door step. That even though we do our very best to abstain from sin, we find ourselves repeating the same sin over and over.  As St. Paul said in Romans 7:15, “For I do not do what I want, but I do what I hate.”…. very true and I hate it!

To arrive to holiness is to detach from our worldly attachment.  Especially to something or someone that is so precious in our life; in exchange to what is truly eternal and divine, which is the broken bread and blood of Christ, celebrated in all the ends of the earth.  A test of faith that God alone suffices.

Holiness entails sacrifice and mortification to experience detachment from all these gross worldly desire in its most painful way. It is only by the grace of God we can truly enter and be victorious with all the temporal desire that easily perish.  Small victories are pathway to holiness for us to create a stronghold to avoid the occasion of sin.

To strive for holiness is to guard our words, thoughts and action, in accordance of being a true disciple of Christ.

In my heart, I admit that I struggle everyday to be holy and to be an authentic martyr for Jesus.  But sin hinders the holiness I desire.

Like dark clouds that hide the moon from my sight, I cannot see the beauty of God clearly. But I know behind those dark clouds, the moon is there wherever I go.

God’s love is unconditional!  Unchanging! This simple thought is already a divine revelation.  It is a substantial bearing to make every effort to persevere and to be holy, where absolute comfort and security is in store for us.

sacrificiomisa3The real and true presence of God the Son, in the form of bread and wine that we receive in the holy sacrifice of the mass, is no doubt the sacred heart of Jesus that unite our soul and spirit in divine union.  How wonderful to know!  Amazing grace!

In my miserable state of being, my Jesus look at me lovingly; always with me, carrying me in my wounded and wrecked spirit.  He heals my broken soul unceasingly and forever so faithful even I am so unfaithful.

May we truly experience God’s love and mercy in the most holy sacrament of the Eucharist, where we receive every source of spiritual blessing, inspiration and hope.

In my very little knowledge in the mystery of God, I proclaim and believe that to be truly holy is to be sincere in all our ways; to be a witness to the living word of God; to experience being broken like the Christ crucified with a thankful heart; to live a life of poverty and chastity free from all worldly attachment,  so we can genuinely share the Christ in us … our hope of glory!


Communion Prayer

My Jesus,I believe that you are present in the holy sacrament.  I love you above all things, and I desire to receive you into my soul. Since I cannot at this moment receive you sacramentally, come at least spiritually into my heart. I embrace you as if you were already there and unite myself wholly to you, never permit me to be separated from you.  Amen

Silent Love

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. (1 Corinthians 13:4-7) NIV


notebookIt is good to contemplate especially when you are deeply in love with a person. Being with the one you loved is no wasted time. Every second is so precious, every detail of action is so important. Every breathe that comes out from the other is heart pounding. And the sacredness of a loving caress truly make you ask for more.


One thing I notice is that when loving couple are together privately, (sharing with my own experience) loving sigh and silence, are the best words to understand what the heart and soul says. The mere silence of the significant other says it all. You are surrounded with different profound emotions and expression of love. Pure happiness enfolds you and everything fall automatically, without any effort at all. Sacred and loving silence, without uttering a word, truly penetrates the innermost faculties of one’s heart and soul.


True love is a two way stream, NOT ONE WAY. It’s a TOTAL connection of yourself to the other. It’s a divine union with the one you love… ONE! You can understand what I am talking about ONLY IF you did fall in love deeply and gave a 100% of yourself in a relationship. IF, you gave ONLY a 99% and still save a 1% for yourself, frankly, you’ll not understand what I am sharing and talking about.


st. thereseWhen I am alone in the most Blessed Sacrament (Perpetual Eucharistic Adoration), same thing I am experiencing with the True Lover of my Soul, Jesus Christ (as St. Therese of Lisieux described Jesus, the Lover of my Soul) I felt no boredom, but pure enjoyment in the silence of love. Being with the one you truly love made every moment especial. No uttering of words but every detail of silent conversation is so profound. No words… no thoughts… but overwhelming conversation of the heart and soul… ONE! Understanding is effortless! Alone with God, He taught me to LISTEN, to SURRENDER and to be CONSUMED by His infinite grace. What a very comforting feeling that only my True Love can give.  Absolute security!


Silence is an inward maturity. Some people thought, that being physically silent, specifically by not talking or raw prudent make them arrive in a contemplative way of life. Silence is a gift, a grace from God. It is not a special spiritual tool of greatness or spiritual advancement. There is no such thing as advance in the realm of spirituality. We are all beginners to understand God’s love and every experience is quite unique. Like a child who submits to his father’s love, it entails total trust and complete surrender. This enveloped a deep relationship with the divine- self, arriving to God’s loving, powerful and holy presence. The doctors of the church manifested the same experiences, and that is simply being deeply in love with their Creator, their True Lover, Jesus Christ… this not require a higher knowledge or theology. It is God’s infinite wisdom that guide and taught them with the mysteries of His divinity and divine love… a basic fact.


Let’s go back about being in love. A person who is deeply in love expresses so much his inward disposition on the exterior. You can see love in his eyes, in his lips, in his gestures, the way he move his hands, the way he smile, the way he talk or whatsoever. Love manifested in his countenance with tremendous power, overflowing blessing and peace. The same thing, you can easily see a person who is faithful in his prayer life and if he is spiritually grounded, if he manifest all these in his action and character. Particularly, I am referring to holiness manifesting! Personally, describing it as holy silence within. Tame, joyful, loud, shining, simple, gentle, pure and very powerful!


Also, the essential and grounded verity is… experiencing all these grace and consolation is a balance of being human, with both feet on the ground, likewise, humbly coming home to God with a child-like heart, desiring to enter His grace and be carried in His loving arms.


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As I end, let me share with you that your friend honeybrisket is not perfect.  Unworthy as I am… God who is all merciful have a purpose for me, for you and in every situation. And this purpose is always the best for us. God uses every situation, whether the persona of that circumstance is ugly, disgusting, poor and helpless… All these are opportunities for individual growth and maturity, an avenue to change, a metanoia. For all people grow but not all people mature. And holy silence can be a great teacher in finding ourselves in the center of our being and in the community we are part with.  It is being mindful of God’s presence in every detail of creation and that is a blessing of overflowing faith.

Peace to you my friend!


P.S     Please read my older post and I hope that in my small way, I can extend God’s love to each and everyone.  For my non- catholics friends this is an extension of the many good things that life has to offer.  In peace and unity… Honeybrisketbabyfat.

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I would like to share my meditation- reflection with a verse from my favorite Psalm 23… “You anoint my head with oil”…


Often problem knock in our doorstep. Family problem, sibling rivalry, business distress, a relationship that will soon come to an end, financial crisis, sickness, death and more predicament to mention.


In a grassland, often, when a sheep encounter the annoying and distracting insects and other winged parasites. Usually, it will bump its head to bushes or tree trunk for it to find relief from the annoying insects. This is very stressful to the sheep. On the other hand, if an attentive shepherd noticed that his sheep is in trouble. He immediately grabs an oil and applies it to the head of his troubled sheep. Because of the anointing of the oil, dramatically, the sheep’s behavior changes and can now enjoy a stress- free rest.  Free from all danger and fear.  Free from the annoying insects that linger around it’s head.


I believe that you and I have a lot to share about the insects and parasites that fly and crawl “in us” and “with us”.  I too am experiencing terrible misfortune from all these distressing events whether in business, family matter, health concern and many more.   Fear gripped me and I find myself melancholy most of the time whenever I am in the situation.  Very distressing! 


Where did I draw my strength and courage facing all these problems simultaneously?  As a Catholic- Christian, I draw and equipped myself through prayer and silence.  Through prayer and contemplation, I found the answer to my weary heart.  We can think with clarity and see ourselves… and in still waters we can find the answer.  And he brought me there… alone…  I am referring to my sacred space, and we are the one who create such space in the inner recesses of our soul, there you’ll find the divine in you.   In your sacred space, you find comfort, healing and rest.  


I spent time alone in the Eucharistic Adoration Chapel where I surrender all my cares and gather all the good things in this universe.  Oh! Now I have all these good things, the wisdom is, my problem is so little compare to the good things around me.  Now, that made sense and make me smile!  Well, it’s not a one night process, and it is God’s grace for me to accept, to have faith in his living promises and to take courage that everything will be well.  FOR ALL SHALL BE WELL… ALL MATTER AND THINGS SHALL BE WELL! 


But God who is all loving is truly amazing!   He unloaded all these useless anxiety.  He uplifted my heavy heart.  And clear my mind that is so clouded.  He sanctified me with such grace that soothes the soul.


God speak to us with our body, with life’s occurrences, friends, disaster or even in the simplest things.   


As a Christian believer, it’s wisdom to know that everything will be okay if I put my BIG God in the center of my troubled spirit.  There is where the anointing comes in.  And now that my head is anointed with my shepherd’s oil of comfort, whom shall I be afraid off?  No one!  For no one is able to harm me, for my Good Shepherd is carrying me in His strong and caring arms ALL THE TIME.  No more flying insects that annoy and trouble me.  He delighted me with so much love, healing and comfort.


A person who chooses peace, love, and oneness to SELF and the creation, will able to see with a  laser- like clarity what really matter in this life because he is “in focus”.  And you’ll able to be at focus if you’ll know how to be still.  Be still and know God….. be still and discover your divinity….. be still..… be..…     


As I end, I picture myself like a warrior facing and conquering all my problems with victory ahead.  Honestly, I fear facing them, but I choose not to be controlled by fear.  And only God’s grace can make me say… I CAN!  I AM CAPABLE!  I AM!     


Let our Good Shepherd apply to your head His anointing and surely you’ll never be the same again, walking life’s journey with courage, perseverance, harmony and serenity.


I personally took the picture above (Jesus, the Good Shepherd) when I was in the city of Jericho in Jordan.  We visited a very small and simple chapel, and I find it very comforting.  I hope you’ll like it!  Peace to all!


 “When flowing water … meets with obstacles on its path, a blockage in its journey, it pauses. It increases in volume and strength, filling up in front of the obstacle and eventually spilling past it….  “Do not turn and run, for there is nowhere worthwhile for you to go. Do not attempt to push ahead into the danger … emulate the example of the water: Pause and build up your strength until the obstacle no longer represents a blockage.”  

from Higher Awareness on “Water wisdom” …..


ram3Last week I watched a documentary film on Discovery Channel about Ram Bahadur Bomjon also known by his monastic name Palden Dorje, is from Ratanapuri village, Bara district, Nepal.

I was so inspired by this 15 years old Nepalese boy who meditated under a pipal tree for three years without food and water. Watching the boy sitting motionless with the same position day by day really amazed me! I was so sanctified by his peaceful countenance. I felt a profound peace within me just by keenly watching every detail of his face and serene posture as he sit motionless in a deep meditation.  What a supernatural phenomenon!  An average human being would be expected to die from kidney failure after four days without drinking any fluids.  Ram showed no sign of physical weakening and dehydration but consistently remained in a very serene and intense state of meditation. 


I am not a Buddhist, but I believe on the ecumenism and the oneness of celestial knowledge of the Divine.  The universal divine who transcend love, peace, unity, holiness and all the graces where the soul and spirit rest. I am one in the equality, the oneness, the total understanding and true wisdom, and the nothingness of an individual in all forms of faith and belief. 


But to tell you my friend, I know very little with all these wonderful experiences of divinity.  The universe is so substantial that I only get not even a hand full or perhaps a very diminutive piece of its mystery, as I remain very faithful with my Catholic- Christian Credo.  Well, everybody have a story to tell about their piece of heaven.  And no one can question and measure the divine love you are experiencing because it transpire only between you and God, no one else!

In connection with this, let me share with you an excerpt that I just read entitled “The Heart Sutra”, which means the Heart of  the Great Wisdom. I am not an expert with other doctrine or whatsoever, but let me impart this because it is somehow similar to the teachings of St. John of the Cross and the spirituality of St. Therese of Lisieux on nothingness. I am convince that the teachings of John are acceptable in the faith and belief of Buddhism.

Pardon me but I edited  some terminology and change few of it to its general meaning.  Every word of this wonderful Heart Sutra has penetrated my being. How powerful it is that every phrase truly consumed me. I find this mindful for people who seek nothingness to arrive at everything. I hope your soul will savour to its unfathomable space as you chew every bit of its emptiness that will fill every inch of your mind, body and soul.


“Heart of the Great Wisdom”

When a sincere truth seeker attains the wisdom of enlightenment,

he realizes that all the five senses which are the bodily forms, sensation, perception, mental creations and consciousness are empty and he transcends every suffering.

Listen: All things are no different from emptiness; emptiness is not different from all things.

Form is emptiness; emptiness is form.

Feelings, perceptions, impulses, consciousness are also like this.

The original nature of all things is neither born nor extinguished.

There is no purity, no defilement; no gain, no loss.

In this world of emptiness there is no form, no feelings, perceptions, impulses, or consciousness.

No eye, ear, tongue body, or mind.

Therefore, no color, sound, smell, taste, touch, or thought.

The world of form does not exist, nor the world of the mind or of ignorance; no old age and no death. Yet there is continuous ignorance, old age, and death.

There is no suffering, no cause of suffering, no cessation of suffering; no wisdom and no attainment because there is nothing to be attained.

The compassionate truth-seeker depends upon the wisdom of enlightenment. When the mind does not become attached to anything, there are no obstacles and fear does not exist.

This mind goes beyond all disruptive views and attains paradise.

All the enlightened sentient of the past, present and future depend upon the wisdom of enlightenment–and so attain the supreme, wisdom of enlightenment as the great unexplainable true word, the great shining true word that is able to remove all suffering. It is true, not false.

This true word of wisdom says: Gone, gone, totally
Gone, completely gone, perfect wisdom, so be it!…



Palden Dorje

Emptiness suggests that nothing really exists, but that’s not the intention of what is being express here.  Thus, emptiness state the existence of reality, and that all things exist really.  Here, emptiness means that things are “as they are” 


We animate in a humanity of theophanies. Holiness hides in the ordinary. There are burning bushes all around us. Every tree is full of angels. Miracle is always happening at hand. And this can happen only if you are willing to unlock the ordinary by believing and holding on with your little faith.


As I unwind, If we will sum up all the great teachings in this world, from Christianity, Islam, Buddhism, etc. It’s a resounding melody of peace, love, unity, forgiveness and repentance.  


Pure spirituality out cry for healing and salvation of the soul from all evil and worldly attachment, that devastate the human heart from its good nature.  For all things are No-Things (Nothing).  All things will soon fade, all things are futile, all things are forgotten, all things passes, all things now decay.


“There is one thing that all true spirituality has in common, whether that spirituality is derived from faith, from science, from nature or from the arts – a sense of wonder!” -Andrew Schneider 


Peace to All!

Hello my beloved friends! I’m back! I’ve accomplished a lot of task, ONE AT A TIME and was so grossly pre occupied with many concern with work and family.  I am so happy that I spent less than a week of silent retreat in the Novitiate House of the Blessed Sacrament Brothers in Bulacan, Philippines. I had a very fruitful retreat. And for so long that I desire to revive my spirit from the fast pace of my lifestyle. I really find time to be in my sacred space.


In this entry, I would like to share some of my reflections from my retreat. To make it clear, I have no intention to teach but rather to share God’s love from my experiences, thoughts from my heart.  I hope that with these humble reflections of mine, I may be able to accompany you in your journey to what life has yet to offer. I also posted “a lot” of pictures that I personally took at the end of my retreat. However, pardon me for I am not a very good photographer, but I look-in that you’ll able to like the photos anyway.  It’s my first time to post so many pictures and putting it at the center that I will have more space to write my reflections.  Enjoy!


Scenery from the veranda of the SSS Noviciate House

Scenery from the veranda of the SSS Novitiate House


To retreat is to “go back”. My goal is to be still and find strength and hope. To refuel and be renewed from the exhausting routine of life’s turmoil and strife. To be watchful and remind myself the disciplines that formed every foundation of my nothingness. And that is to trust God, to be enveloped by His everlasting love and to yield myself like a baby or much better…His beloved spouse. (Because Jesus is so much in love with me and I am so much in love with Him who loved me first.)


Holy Water Font of the Chapel Entrace

Holy Water Font of the Chapel Entrance


In my retreat, I was able to evaluate, to listen and to seek for direction, to be open to the reality of LIFE. It taught me to gain clearer perspective and deeper engagement with the SELF and my BIG God. My retreat is to go back to the center of my being. For much- doing is not always productive and solitude is not a paradox- wasted time, not to charge the spiritual batteries, not to escape, not to withdraw but simply a call to be at HOME where change and rationalisation takes place. To retreat is to partake in a feast on spiritual growth and maturity. To find liberty and pay forward the gift of freedom.


It's so good to meditate the goodness of the Lord!

It's so good to meditate the goodness of the Lord!


Retreat is simply to return and not to advance. It’s not an act of moving forward or gaining momentum spiritual merit. It is a call to refresh our faith, to be embrace and experience God’s presence intimately. The road to retreat is discovering that I am more precious and more than anything, that I need not to worry but to have a grounded trust in the Lord. Whom shall I fear? What a very astonishing experience within! Sweet surrender!



Walk in the holy ground and find deep within the sacred space and healing place. -Sr. Eppie Brazil, OP


How I miss so much the intimacy and fellowship on praying (praying from the deepest recesses of my heart) with the God of the universe who is my Great Lover. He renewed me by His loving presence. Secure me with His living and unwavering promises of love that is forever alive and eternal!


I took this picture at the back of the seminary building

I took this picture at the back of the seminary building


Generally, we are good in slating others and even better in giving counsel, assuming that we know what is best for others. In my retreat, I was fortunate to journey with other novices who attempt to find resolution and healing in their struggles without withholding but to let go of everything in exchange to what is truly valuable and does not perish.




In my solitary where I seek my inner resources. I arrive that I can love much… because I experienced being deeply loved, I can care much… because I experienced being nurtured. I forgive, because I was forgiven. What a grace! And indeed I thank the Lord for all these, not because I was so pampered with love and care, but changing my attitude and way of thinking to the circumstances and every situation whether good and the not so good.


In my retreat, I seek deeper to the centre of security and compassion that I may able to understand more myself and others. And the seeking never ends.


Entrance to the SSS Noviciate House

Entrance to the SSS Novitiate House


In my being silent, it’s not the will to be just physically silent. But to tamed the lashing tongue and release all the evil in my heart that I may progress my inward disposition and find true serenity that comes only from the God of Peace, our Lord Jesus Christ. However, these consolations are not the essence of being silent but to be passionate and authentic with the acts of love, with our deeds and having the genuine service for others. For peace is not a fruit of circumstances but can only found down within… true silent “within” and it can be discern because it radiates from the person’s aura, the way he act and speak in the manner that illumines overflowing peace that is profound.



That's not me okay

That's not me okay


As I end, may I share a quote by Charles Ringma in his book Dare to Journey… “The secret of the spiritual life is to recognize that the Great Lover welcomes us as we are- not to pity us, but to gently transform us and inspire us with new hope.”

Prayer and Love

r-praying-hands3To pray is to LISTEN!


One theme of this blog is PRAYER, but in my previous entries, I haven’t posted any prayers yet.  Allow me to share with you some of my favourite prayers that I usually recite mentally when I’m in solitary.  Or sometime whenever my personal prayer ceases me, that I needed the aid of these very beautiful and profound prayers from the heart. 


I will not share on HOW to pray, but only to impart few of the well known prayers that I loved the most. Likewise, on how I arrived and experienced my personal union with God through prayer.   


For we all have our unique ways of praying.  Whether by means of meditation, contemplation, singing, dancing, work and prayer, breathing or simply just being still… or… just “to be”… and the most simple way is to pray without words and“IN” love.


Okay, let me give you an example… 


When a person is in love… I mean deeply in love.  Often, words need not to be uttered anymore.  The body language, the eyes, the loving smile and gesture express it all!


When you love someone, you just want to listen to his or her stories.  You find sweet intimacy with every breathe and words coming from that person.  Every detail interest you.  Mutual understanding is automatic and effortless.


When you receive a kiss from the one you loved.  It is good to feel that passionate kisses by simply closing your eyes and being carried away to the heavens above!  No words… but only loving kisses… in silence.  (Oh my! Now I miss my sweetheart.)


r-heartWithout malice but in the union of loving couples, (let me emphasize again being “deeply in love”), often you just behold the person’s beauty.  Sometime you stop for awhile and gaze on everything about the significant other.  Loving sigh!  You are speechless and at the same time every moment is sacred with that person.  (This is not a valentine pro bono okay haha!)


In my humble opinion, expressing prayer in silence and sacred romance is nearly quite the same.  Though here, we are connecting ourselves to God (sacred moment with God).  What I am trying to say is that, prayer is like being with the one you love.  A love song that lifts you high, that brings you to the heights of perfection.  Wherein you will only find peace, comfort, healing and love.  This is a simple thought that I expressed and experienced in my personal prayer.  I don’t know the theology of prayer but I would like to share with you what I knew from my heart. 


Every time I will watch EWTN (Catholic Network) I am so consumed by the prayers of Mother Teresa of Calcutta.  Whenever she will recite the Family Prayer, I will find myself in total peace of being.  I chew slowly and savoured every sacred word until it penetrated the innermost faculties of my heart and soul.  What a refreshing consolation!  Pure joy and profound peace!  I hope and implore that you’ll find and experience the same joy and peace that I enjoyed. I suggest you read the prayer slowly…


(Mother Teresa composed this prayer for the United Nations International Year of the Family)



Heavenly Father, you have given us a model of life in the Holy Family of Nazareth.

Help us, O loving Father to make our family another Nazareth

where love, peace and joy reign.

May it be deeply contemplative, intensely Eucharistic and vibrant with joy.

Help us to stay together in joy and sorrow through family prayer.

Teach us to see Jesus in the members of our family especially in their distressing disguise. May the Eucharistic Heart of Jesus make our hearts meek and humble like His

and help us to carry out our family duties in a holy way.

May we love one another as God loves each one of us more and more each day,

and forgive each other’s faults as You forgive our sins.

Help us, O loving Father to take whatever You give and to give whatever You take

with a big smile.

Immaculate Heart of Mary, cause of our joy, pray for us.

St. Joseph, pray for us.

Holy Guardian Angels be always with us, guide and protect us.



 As I recall when I was in Mindanao, one of my monk friend told me before… Honeybrisket… “For you to arrive at everything, desire to possess nothing.”  



Truly, God will fill your brim if you are “empty”.   How can God fill you when you are already filled with so much worldly attachment that are futile and that easily perish?  “Let my prayer be is to desire for nothing that I may possess everything!”  And God is my everything!


One classic prayer that I loved so much and I doubt many adults don’t usually pray this anymore, is the Angel of God.  Whenever I recite this prayer, it always make me arrived to be a “kid” at heart.



Angel of God,
my guardian dear,
To whom God’s love
commits me here,
Ever this day,
be at my side,
To light and guard,
Rule and guide.



Lastly, a short sacred song that I usually play in my room when I’m alone entitled Sacred Space by Sr. Eppie Brazil, OP.  Very invigorating when accompanied by rhythmic breathing and meditation, this mantra of sacred song is so perfect that it will permeate every cell of your being.  So refreshing!


“Deep within me now is a Sacred Space,

And to God I bow for this gift of grace”

(Slowly repeat over and over until you are consumed by the prayer,

until you become a prayer yourself.)

Utter the prayer… Pray mentally… until you become silent in prayer.


I hope I imparted not only inspiring thoughts from my previous blog, but sharing with you inspiring, simple and beautiful yet profound classic prayers from the heart.  And I will really appreciate if you could also post your personal or favourite prayers here in my blog.  That will be great!


Let us all be a living prayer in this world!