I love myself! I care for myself! I am whom I want to be! I can create my own possibilities! I am sacred, pure and a beautiful soul! I am free! These are the affirmations uttered when I graduated from RCW1 (Reparenting the Child Within). That experience helped me break free from all the childhood bondages in the different areas of my life. It was like a rebirth that refreshed my entire being, my soul being revived! My spirit was liberated from the iron chain that locked me for twenty-five years of my life. I arrived at knowing what I want in life, knowing myself deeply… a reunion of the spirit, soul and body… my child and my adult self.
For twenty- five years of my life I carried with me a resentment toward my father. I remember that whenever I hear his voice, my body would tremble, I could feel weak by the sheer pressure of his presence. I would feel stress gripping me. I was always fed with words of invalidation everyday ever since I was a child. I could not please him with my grades, with my kind attitude and loving gestures as a son. I was constantly in emotional and psychological pain, something that chained my entire being.
I almost got to a point that I wanted to take drugs. I was so pissed off with my life because I was like a puppet. I hated the people who emotionally and psychologically abused me. I curse them all! But with the help of this powerful seminar, I helped and allowed myself to be free from all this useless anxiety and the invincible heavy chain that imprisoned me. Forgiveness set me free.
One of the areas in my life that was realigned appeared in my meditation as I recalled how my first grade teacher knocked me in my head because of my sloppy oral reading. Because of that, my English grammar got so poor that I became shy and had low self-esteem up to my college days. Thank God, our family business pushed me to the limits and I learned to really speak English with our international associates and that made me more confident.
Life after RCW1 has never been the same again. Now, I believe I have improved in speaking English and in English my belief in myself empowered me to fluently speak of even with an accent when I need to do so. How I feel more confident. I can say what I want to say, I can write what I want to write with profound words coming from my heart. I can express my feelings without reservation. I can accept criticism and regard it as constructive. I have likewise learned to be decisive and goal oriented. I now know what I want and choose the path I wish to traverse. I have learned to speak my mind, to be able to say yes or no. I do not allow any person to harm me with sharp arrow words that can wound my soul. I break it before it hit me. I have learned to make myself flexible in difficult situations and think fast. To encapsulate it, it is as though all the graces and talent that were snatched from me when I was a child have been given back. Wow! What a very wonderful feeling. And this feeling of consistency to improve, to discover and to experience the fullness of life is what I am savoring for many years now and up to this present moment.
I am ready, I am willing, I am… and yes! My process is still in progress.
Address: Reintegration for Care & Wholeness
RCW Foundation, Incorporated
59 C. Salvador Street
Varsity Hills Subdivision
Quezon City, Philippines